Beautiful Inside and Out

I used to wanna live inside a fairytale. I wanted to be perfect and complete, but everytime I tried to figure out my life, I was always disappointed with the ending. But everything's different now, I am not ashamed anymore. Lately, it's so amazing what You're doing to me, rearranging me from the inside out. Only You can take away all my superficial ways, You have shown me what BEAUTY'S about, from the INSIDE OUT!!!

Monday, January 30, 2006

papaano ako lalayo

PAANO AKO LALAYO
gusto kong lumayo
papalayo mula sa'yo
ngunit ito ay siguradong malabo
sapagkat di ko alam kung papaano
ang dahilan ay hindi ko sigurado
basta gusto kong kumawala sa'yo
ang magbarkada ay ikaw at ako
ngunit di ko talaga alam kung paano
sa pamilya mo ay malapit ako
maging sa puso mo ay sobrang lapit ko
nakaraan at kasalukuyan mo ay batid ko
ngayon, sabihin mo, paglayo at paano

Saturday, January 21, 2006

WOAAH… What’s this??? A Script???

Every Thursday my class always starts at 7:30 am and will end up until 2:30 pm, and in connection with this, I also have a 1 ½ vacant hours during that day.
My three other classmates used to stay at Carina’s house during our vacant hours, to eat lunch, to watch TV, to sleep etc. But last Thursday, I tried not to come with them, and prefer to be alone at that time, because I wanted to grab that spare time to have time reading my bible. First, I planned to stay at the Chapel but when I was on my way, I saw my other classmates staying there, so I just considered looking for somewhere else to stay so none of my classmate will see me. I just don’t want to let them know that I will read my bible, not because I’m to shy, but I don’t want them to see me because, they might think I’m bragging the thought about it, it’s fine that they know that I’m a Christian, and I’m proud about it. I choose to stay at the Lagoon, because as I check the place, none of my classmates stay at that place.
As I read my bible, my classmate named “Eric” pass through me, and he did recognized me. He asked me of what I’m doing but I never had a chance to answer him because he already answered his own question. He asked me once again, “Is that a bible?” and I nodded, “You’re reading that?” and I nodded once again, and I’m thinking “what’s wrong with it?” but I never asked him that question, I just answered him with “Yes” and I smiled. Yet, he asked for my permission if he can sit beside me, of course I answered him with the appropriate answer, “yes, of course, why not?”
Eric is a part of a movement in our school, which is active in rally and such thing, but I’m not condemning him about that. As I read my bible, he also read his little book which I think about being an activist or the things and topics they are shouting when there is a rally on our school.
Few minutes later, my classmates whom I used to go with during vacant hours pass through us, and they recognized us. Uh-oh, I smell someone’s in trouble. The way they look at us, really does mean something. And Carina whispered “nice”, the other asked us, “is that a date?” I don’t know what to answer, I just simply answered “no” and Eric answered “yes, why?” in pathetic way, and after that, the four of them just leave us.
zzzzbha - oi tulog ako, wag kang magulobha - wow piki ako...bha - tayo nang magsulatbha - summer camp 05bha - souvenir shop, model daw babha - ngek, pacutebha - ngek nakapambahay lang akobha - wow sosyal fort santiago etuchbha - fashion show ba etuch
When I got to our class, I explained to them that it was not what they’re thinking, it happened accidentally. Thank God, they believe, whooo.,..
Another weird thing happened on that day, Pastora Bheck asked me if I can help them in doing the youth booth in our church, and I told her, that I’ll try to come.
On my way to our church, there’s a car who bumped up to a truck, and the bus I’m riding was being blocked for 30 minutes, what an experience.
When I’ve got to COP, I thought we’re going to build the youth booth, but they give me something else, a SCRIPT for the Reality Segment in TGIF@COP. And they asked me to play the role of the protagonist, I’m shocked, I wanted to back-out but no one will do the part.
The taping ended up at already 10:05 pm, what an experience. Thank God, it’s done, and the segment looks good when they’ve showed it in the Friday night congregation.